What the Hell Was I Thinking!?!

I let my one true love get away from me then I chased her away like the plague, Now what was I thinking?? Well honestly I don't really know I just know I ****** up and I am now trying my hardest to pick up the pieces. Picking up the pieces of this relationship is kinda like trying to reassemble a plate that had been thrown on the floor. I am getting close to getting back some of what I used to have I can not fix the past, but maybe I can fix something in the future. Why the hell I did what I did I don't know really but I did it and I can't undo it now. All I can do is try my hardest to get myself back in good standing with my ex and convince her that I know what I did is unforgivable but now I need her back in my life. I need to feel her skin against mine and I need to feel her love again, I have now been medicated and with out her I don't know if my life will be quite right or if all of my issues will be worked out. All I can do is hope and pray that she will let me back into her life and let me work out my/our issues and get back to what we had when we began even though she wants to leave the state. I hope my love reads this and thinks about everything I have said and will let me come back into her life slowly and let me talk with her on our issues.

 

blackdoggy blackdoggy
22-25, M
3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

I recommend alcohol and vicodin best relationship ever

Thanks :)

you have to claim her if u really want to be with her again,man.And this is the hard part.cause u dont know if she will want to listenor if shes got somebody else,or if she wants to move on.anyway,if she doesnt respond to ur reconcilliation u ll have to move on urself.this difficult to but u ll lose ur mind if u dont move on