I miss him so much. I've not been without him for 5 years. He says he never wants to be with me again. But I can't help loving him. He is my soulmate, I know it. I don't know how to live without him. It hurts to think about how much I've hurt him and how much he's hurt me. But it couldn't have all been for nothing could it? I miss him and I love him I want him to know, but I'm afraid of what he'll say back. I just want things to be the way they used to be.