Love Lost

I miss him so much. I've not been without him for 5 years. He says he never wants to be with me again. But I can't help loving him. He is my soulmate, I know it. I don't know how to live without him. It hurts to think about how much I've hurt him and how much he's hurt me. But it couldn't have all been for nothing could it? I miss him and I love him I want him to know, but I'm afraid of what he'll say back. I just want things to be the way they used to be.
dreamofme dreamofme
22-25, F
6 Responses Jan 5, 2007

Hello sweetheart. I totally understand how you feel. My boyfriend of five years left me three weeks ago. I will not contact him even if it feels as if I will die unless I hear his voice.<br />
He contacts me and wants to see me but for a whole year before he left me he rejected me sexually and he threatened to leave me lots of times.<br />
I still love him and want him back so badly.<br />
I know theres no one else, hes too depressed for that. He tells me Im the most beautiful woman in the world but he has to be alone.<br />
Its cruel and Im at rock bottom now.<br />
Incredibly lonely as I have no children.<br />
Darling your pain is tangible but we have to let them go. I agree that if you chase him he will lose respect for you.<br />
All we ever want when we are in pain is for things to go back to the way they were.<br />
I want ihim here withe me. I miss him so much and Id give anything to have him back.<br />
I agree with the person who said if you were much older you'd do anything to get back to now.<br />
Im 45 darling and you are so young. You will heal baby. We both will.<br />
In the meantime message me and tell me everything you feel. I will help you. Dont hold back, dont feel shame. Let your feelings out and together we will go through this awful time and grow stronger and find happiness again.<br />
Our hearts were meant to heal. <br />
Love Susan from the UK

He wants u to pine. It takes ur beauty years away. Get it. If u were 80 and could look in mirror ud give billions to come back to now. A soulmate is something u buy like a puppy. Books to get smarter and tarot cards of ebay so u can do life. A muse is someone who inspires u

Sorry, but I have to disagree with a few of the comments.<br />
Firstly, you shouldn't wait for him to come back. I hate to say this, but the simple fact of the matter is = he won't come back.<br />
You two broke up for a reason. That reason will still exist. The only thing that you can do is move forward. If he chooses to reconnect with you - that'll be your decision later on. Just don't wait for it to happen!<br />
Secondly, don't try to win him back....<br />
He won't respect you.<br />
The only thing that you can do is move forward. If he chooses to reconnect with you - that'll be your decision later on. Just don't wait for it to happen!<br />
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Up until March 09, I was with m boyfriend for 11 years. <br />
Up until this morning (3:00am), I was pleading with him to take me back and we could work it out. I finally got the answer I needed to hear to wake me up into the 21st century...."I am falling in love with another woman. She is very nice and it has long term potential".<br />
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If that isn't a wake-up call, I don't know what is.<br />
Girlfriend...move on with your life!<br />
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hugz from Canada

I, on the other hand, see no reason not to contact him. Life is just passing you by and if you try to get him back you will at least be certain of how he feels. You miss a hundred percent of the shots you never take.<br />
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Live that life of yours! Live!

Give him time. The worst thing you can do is try to get him back. Try to stay busy.<br />
If you two were meant to be, you will be...<br />
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I understand. I feel the same way. If you still love and want him after all the pain, why can't he still love and want you, too? Wait for that. It's worth it to wait to be loved no matter what, the way it sounds like you love. But it still hurts. I'm sorry.