Wide-eyed Dreamy Blue.

Every now and than I see something or something comes up in conversation that reminds me of him. And next thing I know I'm smiling tenderly to myself and my eyes have gone wide-eyed and dreamy blue(which I hate). I try not to fall into that trap of clinging to the past and just distract myself. But worse still is when I see him with his tart of the day and I'm struck by how different she is to me. Now I'm thinking "damn, he's an idiot. What did I ever see in him?" And so of I go trying to remember what exactly it was that kept us together for so long and than before I know it I'm smiling tenderly to myself and my eyes have gone that annoying wide-eyed dreamy blue again. Surely it's just a matter of time? Please let it be a matter of time, I think about him more now he's gone than I did when we were together. Idiot. Seriously, what did I ever see in him? ...great... now I'm smiling to myself and remembering the good times that I'd really rather not remember. 
Faile Faile
18-21, F
1 Response Jul 4, 2007

Wouldn't it be nice to take those nice memories and keep them...without the unpleasantness? It's a shame to waste such great memories just because he turned out to be a jerk, I mean, we didn't think that at the time of the memory! I have a lot of those memories, too, from my first relationship.