Wide-eyed Dreamy Blue.Every now and than I see something or something comes up in conversation that reminds me of him. And next thing I know I'm smiling tenderly to myself and my eyes have gone wide-eyed and dreamy blue(which I hate). I try not to fall into that trap of clinging to the past and just distract myself. But worse still is when I see him with his tart of the day and I'm struck by how different she is to me. Now I'm thinking "damn, he's an idiot. What did I ever see in him?" And so of I go trying to remember what exactly it was that kept us together for so long and than before I know it I'm smiling tenderly to myself and my eyes have gone that annoying wide-eyed dreamy blue again. Surely it's just a matter of time? Please let it be a matter of time, I think about him more now he's gone than I did when we were together. Idiot. Seriously, what did I ever see in him? ...great... now I'm smiling to myself and remembering the good times that I'd really rather not remember.
Faile 18-21, F 1 Response 2 Jul 4, 2007