I Miss Him So Much It Hurts

I fell in love with this guy when I was 14 and still in high school. I was so crazy in love with him because he was my first love. He was so special in many ways. He helped me with most of my school assignments did almost everything for me.

When I was sick he was there for me, supporting me every step of the way assuring me that everything was gonna be alright. After completing my high school level, he wanted more out of our relationship. He wanted commitment yet I was a mere 17 year old still experience more in life. I was not ready for any commitment at that time. He called the relationship off citing that I was not serious with him.

At first I thought may be it was a good thing we broke up. After a 4 years when I was 21 I got married to this guy that I had known my whole life and was a good friend of mine. For years I did not see my ex-boyfriend until recently. I have been praying to meet him again. Luckily, I bumped into him at a shopping centre and we talked about things in general.

He brought up the subject about us, saying he still loved me and I told him that I still loved too and I missed him so much. Since then I have been thinking about him a lot and I miss so much. I wish I could travel back in time a bring back those times we used to be together. My heart still long to be with him but I can't coz I am married to someone. Though I am married I am not happy in the marriage which makes miss my ex-boyfriend. I still love him so much it hurts to think that I will never be with him ever again. He also got married recently. We are still good friends and keep in touch.

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1 Response Feb 15, 2008

Im sorry to hear about your situation. I also met my ex when I was 14 and we broke up his senior year. Fifteen years later I still think about him all the time and wish I would have done things differenty. Like you, I have gotten in touch with him recently but we are both now married. It hurts to know we can never turn back time. All you can do is try to move forward and make new happy memories. I try to tell myself just because I was happy back then does not mean we would be happy now.