I Miss You So Much That It Hurts.

Another night filled with your memories. The memories of the lovely long ago. Memories that I will cherish forever.

You told me that it is only memories. Yes, it's true - they are only memories of the past we once shared. Memories of the plans we had for the future. To tell you the truth, my plans still have you in them. But I know, in yours, there is no hint of me in it.

I told you a thousand times before that I am sorry for the things I did, the things I did not do, and for the words I said. But you turn a deaf ear and push me away.

I still love you. Yes, I still really do. But I know its too late now. I know that you are happy now with your life. Maybe you found a new love. A greater love that I failed to give you. Sometimes, I regret for taking you forgranted, but what's done is done.

If I had a time machine, I would have NOT taken you forgranted. I would have GIVEN more than I have given to you. I would have taken time to embrace who you are - but this is no science fiction, this is reality. And in reality, you are nowhere to be found and I am left here waiting for you.

I miss you and all I can do now, is look at you so longingly, waiting for the time that I will be free from your memories' tormenting grasps. Soon, moving on is in reach and if ever I do move on, there is one thing I would like to tell you - Thank you.

kaaru kaaru
22-25, M
4 Responses Mar 26, 2007

You nearly made me cry, I feel exactally the same, Its horrible.<br />
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Thanks

i going through something similar but the person is right here with me. i feel like i am going crazy sometimes, i can't tolerate the heartache.

Thanks :)

I admire the fact that you have the courage and the wisdom to say "thank you" to your first love. this is what i feel...that they have given be a gift because i've learned so much and i've gained so much confidence-wise from knowing that someone so awesome has once cared about me. i just wish i'd have been nicer, more honest, etc etc. i really did like him. a lot. i was just the classic ice-queen. insecurity. <br />
anyway, i thoroughly enjoyed reading your touching story. thank you.