It's Been 12 Years....

Since I left my soulmate.  I think of him every day.  I agonize over my mistake.  I was so young and stupid.  Just the thought of him brings tears to my eyes.  I miss you my love.  You told me I was your angel, and I didn't believe you.  I hope you are as happy in your life as I am unhappy in mine.  I hope you are still writing your beautiful poetry.  I hope your wife knows how lucky she is to have you.  I hope you know how wonderful you are.  I wish I could talk to you one more time just to tell you how sorry I am.  You've probably forgotten all about me, though.  But I will never, ever forget you.  You are one in a million.  I wish I would have known then what I know now.  I wish I would have known that my soul would die when I let you go.  I wish I would have known what I had when I had it.  But I didn't, and you are gone.  Long, long gone.  I will have this deep, aching, gnawing, agonizing regret until the day I die.  I love you JW. 
venabambina venabambina
36-40, F
3 Responses Apr 13, 2012

I feel like its pretty safe to say he hasn't forgotten you at all...You Never ever forget your first love..Reaching out is risky...But for some of us it has turned out nice...Even if you just end up getting a new / old friend back...

If its any concillation split from my first love 30 yrs ago almost you don't remember others but you do your first love!

He remembers and probably wonders why.