Que Sera Sera?

I'm so confused. The guy I love just broke up with his girlfriend of four years. I loved him from the moment I saw him. I felt a connection. I was 13 and he was 17. But he had a girlfriend at the time. Yet he has come back in my life after three years. It' really something because I thought he might marry his girlfriend and never speak to me. I'm going to try and be his friend at least because I know he wouldn't want a long distance relationship since he lives in Singapore and I, in India. But what I'm confused about is the passion with which I want him. Is it love? I've tried so hard and so many times in different ways to move on from him but I haven't been able to. This passion I feel for him destroyed me once. I was anorexic and anemic, and emotionally and mentally broken. I know I can fall apart once more. But I feel stronger now.
What if he isn't even the same person? In the three years we didn't speak, he lost his father and started smoking. I'm sure all of this has affected him...
I'm scared in a way. I'm also deeply happy and excited. I have the most beautiful love I've ever felt for anyone back in my life but what do I do now?
aprilsoul aprilsoul
1 Response May 10, 2012

Someone please comment and help me.. :(