I'll Always Be Here For You.

So this is a really touchy subject but imma do my best to say what i can so it's understandable.

The first person I ever been with sexually, I consider that to be my first love. We just have this connection. It's amazing. Well I almost lost him.. He was in a coma & the first time I heard about it I cried that whole day. I never got to tell him "bye" or "i still love him" & that "i think about him" or that i was gonna text him two days before i got the call & i didnt! I felt so bad. Although I know it wasn't my fault, I felt so guilty. I couldn't pull myself together enough to go to the hospital the same day I found out. . so I went the next day. & boy am I glad I did! I talked to his mom for a really long time. About anything & everything. Then she was telling me I was the special one in his life. & She wants us to get married. She's just a sweetheart. But it made me feel good to know that I matter in his life. & That his mom actually likes me. I went in the room to go see him & I couldn't breathe. I was shaking & trying so hard not to cry in front of everyone. Then his mom started talking to him, trying to get him to come through. He had opened his eyes & looked around some, but he wasn't fully awake. A friend of mine & his believe that I was the one to wake him up.. Because his mom was like "*****" look at all your friends, they came to see you, then she was like remember "******" she came to see you. Then it was like after that he started being more alert & opening his eyes & squeezing peoples hands. I got to hold his hand & he was squeezing it, & i kissed it. so he knows im there. & then he was looking around the room & made eyes contact with me for a while. Yeah, I felt the connection. All I could do was smile. I was speechless. I just pray that when he gets out he does the right thing in his life. I really care about him. & I love him to death. He's my baby. I pray for him everyday. <3 Just hope he realizes he still has me. His friends say he'll realize I'm who he should be with. But we will see :p
strengthfinder strengthfinder
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 5, 2012

If he can see you he can probably hear you try talking to him and tell him how you feel,
don't give up love can do amazing things.
Mikel xoxo