The Haunting

Im crying right now because I have been going through the same thing for about 13 years of my life. if you read my story you will see why. I totally agree with dare2love. that type of love is so powerful that when other people try to break it off it becomes much harder to get over and move on from. I forgave the people that influenced me to break up with my first love, but I gotta admit, I harbored resentment towards them because my whole love life, let alone my life was turned upside down, because the love I once had was now gone and I searched many years for someone to love me the same as he did. It has not worked and I know I have given it a sincere college try. I long for he and I to be together again, but sadly, his heart is in non-trust mode because of what his wife has done to him over a period of ten years and im pretty sure, about what I did to him when were young. I admit, I don't know what to do.....

In the same boat, I tell myself a love like that is so magnetized and unstable that the universe could not handle that kind of cosmic energy. But when we meet in my dreams I miss him all over again.

I think first loves and those that are soul mate stay with us forever. The bond is especially strong when the separation was done by others. Maybe you owe it to yourself to look for them.