So before my real first love I thought I was so in love with every guy i dated. Turned out  I didnt know anything. I met the guy and knew. Knew he was differenet. He was the same but different. I fell in love with him. I was determined to keep my virginty until marriage but I turely madly deeply loved him and he had different ideas. One thing let to another and we were having sex. But to me it was so much more than that. We were so connected. Sure he was 10 years older than me but I didnt care. All my friends thought he was using me. My mom thought he had to many problems to get involved. My dad loved him (sometimes I think more than I did) He was always happier around me (well thats what his family and his friends thought) I heard about all the warning signs you know he don't introduce to friends or familys he keeps you from your family or friends. You know and non of that we spent time alone we spent it with hisf family and friends and mine and I knew his whole family and loved all of them. It felt to good to be true and sure enough it was. After dating for a year and ahalf he broke it off saying he never felt more than a friend and sex.... I doubt it because he still kept coming around even after I stoped giving out.  But he said that after he asked me why i let him take my virginty and I told it was because I was in love with him. (this was a year and a half later and he went running) To this day his brother and I talk and his brother told me he really did care for me. He just was scared because he thoughts were going too good to be true. That he would get attached and I would hurt him like his last girlfriend. I still talk with the guy to this day but he wont admit it to me. I miss him with all my heart. I am madly in love with my husband of now 2 years but part of me wishes things would of been different
LauraLDS2003 LauraLDS2003
22-25, F
Jul 29, 2007