The First One Will Be Always Special

It is strange but I often feel that I still miss my first love. I am married, I have a very good husband, but I often think about it how it would be to live with him. With him who taught me to love, to kiss and the magical power of touching.

I know that this is somehow not normal. But I can't stop it. He has a family. He has a wife and two children as I know. I often wonder: is he happy with that girl? We were still together when they got to know each other. I had to break up with him. He didn't say anything. He didn't even say I am sorry. He left me heartless. It was a very bad May. And he got married in summer. I just didn't want to believe it!

He did it to me and after all I have this feeling somewhere in me. He broke my heart, but my heart did not forget him.
And I think that it never will.
dreamygirl dreamygirl
31-35, F
2 Responses Aug 17, 2007

Absolutely normal, just very difficult to talk to someone in real life about. No one gets it.

I can't say that I don't feel the same way...because honestly I do. So-it must be somewhat normal if we aren't the only ones who feel this way...