I Miss My First Love
Only started to very recently, but I miss him so much. We were secretly dating, I couldn't tell my family because he went to school with my older sister and I wasn't allowed a boyfriend until 16. And NO he wasn't a pervert before you all write comments like that. It was just really fun, and I completely took him for granted at that age. He was so affectionate and sweet, and really funny. Plus he adored me! I ended it with him because I could no longer carry on lying to my parents where I was going and staying and who was calling etc. And although I stayed at his house, in a 24year old's bed, at only 15 he NEVER pressured me for sex. And we never did.
I remember when he first told me he loved me... I was in Manchester seeing my friend and I couldn't get home as all the trains were cancelled from snow. He drove all the way up to get me, despite the snow, and he said 'I just couldn't wait any longer to tell you that I love you' D@mn I miss him.
I know where he is but have absolutely no way of getting hold of him. No number, no address, no facebook, no email. All I know is that he lives in a city about a three hour drive away. But I do know the adress of his parents house, I've written several letters to him in the hope that they'd forward it to him, but I never end up posting it. His name was Ben. 'Ben and Darcey' hmm goes nicely.
