I Miss My First Love and Wonder About Where He Is

I would just like to start off by saying that I love my husband very much, and wouldn't trade him or my son in for anything.

That said... I wonder about my first love. We met when I had just turned 17. I saw him and in my heart, I knew I was going to be with him. Not even two weeks later, we were together and going to prom. We were together everyday. I was practically living at his house and we were very close. We had problems though because of the abuse I had been through as a child that had then only recently ended. But we worked through it and were so freaking happy together. While I believe there are many people out there who can make you happy, I believe you only have one soul mate and he was mine.

We broke up because we were too young to handle it. It was too intense, too overwhelming, too everything. How do you handle being with the one you think your going to spend the rest of your life with when you're 17? It was a scary feeling and neither of us could handle it. In the way of teenagers, we decided to take a break when I joined the military. The break turned into him getting another girl pregnant and me being utterly devestated. To this day, I still ache when I think of his betrayle. And though I wouldn't trade my current life in, I do still think what my life would be like if I had stayed with him.

BehindMyMind BehindMyMind
22-25, F
Aug 20, 2007