I Miss Her

Yesterday was her funeral. It was 2o'clock in the afternoon. It was a very sunny hot day and we were in Auckland. About 40family and friends came to the ceremony and she was laid out in a closed casket. There were red roses on the casket. Various family added a few bouquets and my cousin added a blanket she had knitted for her and a 'trick' sherry glass that Nana had. My cousin broke it when she was a young school kid and she was devastated, although Nana didn't seem too phased. My cousin was given the exact type of glass on her 30th birthday from her brother as sort of a joke and it seemed right to send Nana off with it.

My uncle was the celebrant and we all took our opportunity to speak and farewell her. I didn't speak as I was crying too much. My mother who has divorsed with my father wasn't sure whether iot was appropriate to go but she did in the end which the familyt was really happy about. She spoke beautiful words. My Dad also spoke. It was hard for him because he was so close with ana. They lived together just the two of them for 20years because he was so much younger than the other children.

He spoke the most beautiful things of her. He sang her a song by Johnny Cash (a family, and Nana's favourite), "We'll Meet Again".

We'll meet again
Don't know where
Don't know when
But I know
We'll meet again
Some sunny day

Keep smilin' thru
Just like you
Always do
'Til the blue skies drive
The dark clouds
Far away

And will you please say hello
to the folks that I know
Tell'em that I won't be long
And they'll be happy to know
That when you saw me go
I was singing this song

My dad has an amazing voise but that was the most heart wrenching thing I've ever witnessed, seeing my Dad lose a parent was very hard.

After we all spoke and cried, a video was shown. It was of pictures throughout her life and of her kids. At the end of it there was a video of her resiting a poem "Bainies Cuddle Doon". It's an old Scottish poem she taught us as children. The recording was one she had done for me on my birthday about 7years ago. I just broke down when I saw that because I felt like she was speaking to me. I will try and add it to my blog sometime.

When they led her casket out the bagpipes started playing. I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life. She was led out of the funeral home to the hirse. We took handfulls of rose petals and placed them on her casket. The hirse then left, I've never seen so mny tears. My brother cried too, he hasn't cried in about 10years, but was bawling with us. I feel like she is really missing from our lives now. She was such a beautiful woman and I love her so dearly. I will never forget her and the things she did for our family, the people she's hellped us become. I can't ever find tge words that do her justice. This will have to do for now.

The Bairnies cuddle doon at nicht,

We muckle faught  and din,

"Oh try an' sleep, ye waukrife rogues,

You faither's comin' in."

They niver heed a word I speak,

I try to gie a froon.

But aye I hap' then up an' cry

"Oh Bairnies cuddle doon!"


I love you Nana Burke

fresheyes fresheyes
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 7, 2009

dear miss saj, i share your grief, i'm sorry your nanna passed on. may i sympathetize with you? i know what it's like, to lose a very much loved one. my grandpa passed on, when i was eight years old. we were so very close, and i remember him being, a very loving and caring man. it sounds as if your nanna was, also, a very loving and caring person, and the two of you were very close. may you, please be consoled, by that fact, and by your warm and cherished memories of her. i hope and pray that these few words, from me , may in some small way, give you some consolation. god bless and keep you. lol, brian