Pissed Off

My husband and I met when I was 15, we got married at 18. Iam now 28. He committed suicide when I was 19. Just recently I miss him more than ever. I cant remeber stuff about him anymore. It almost there but not. The way he talked, looked smeeled touched. I so very angry at him.
Mattslove Mattslove
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

why did he take his life, if you dont mind me asking? im usually contimplating suicide due to the fact im doing absolutely nothing in life cept for wasting resources. but he had someone..

I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. I know if you could of prevented it you would have but you can't change the past. anger is normal.......sometimes people need help and don't convey it... I know a man who's wife had postpartum after their second child. back then they had never heard of postpartum depression and she committed suicide with her 2 babies at home. we can't change the actions of others and even though their actions may change us for life--- we decide how and what the change means to us..... you may need to get into a group , there's plenty out their for suicides, death of children, etc...it helps to talk with others in the smae boat. you may try to get busy with other things, that's helped me albeit my situation is different.. good luck and god bless