My Husband Died
My husband died suddenly of a massive heart attack on July 4th. He was 55, and had no symptoms or warning signs. I can't bear to live without him. We've been together since I was 16 and I'm 46 now. I've never lived on my own, and I don't know what it's like to be "single" - I've always been part of a couple. I cry every day...I don't want to live without him. We had a wonderful life together - never had any children by choice - we devoted ourselves completely to each other...and now I'm alone. I feel as if I'm paralyzed or crippled...I just do what is necessary to get through each day. I love God and I have a lot of faith, but that faith is being tested now, and I'm angry at God for taking him away from me. I want to die so I can be with him.