My Husband Was And Is The Love Of My LifeOn May 15th it will be three years from the day Tom died.
No matter what I do I can't imagine life without Tom.
We met when we were teenagers.
We really saved each other from traumatic events we both had been through.
We were together for 47 years.
We have four incredible daughters and 7 almost 8 grandchildren.
We started out poor and with nothing
we always supported our children in activites
Tom got sober in AA at 30 years old and we lived 34 wonderful years in recovery
Tom gave so much to me and our family He gave so much in life
He was at World trade center clean up
In 2008 he was diagnosed with lung cancer
He had surgery and chemotherapy and went through so much in that year.
One year later the day before my birthday he died.
I have done so much to try to understand and accept this.
I have had much support.
Therapy friends grief groups I went away for 2 weeks for an intense therapeutic program
I try to keep my children from knowing how much I miss I dont want them to worry about me
As this third anniversary approaches I am so sad.
I miss Tom I miss holding his hand, looking in his eyes talking with him sleeping next to him.
I want him It does'nt seem fair