My Life Is Painful

RECENTLY ON SEPTEMBER 1,2012 MY HUSBAND WOKE FROM A DEEP SLEEP WENT INTO MY GRANDMOTHERS HOUSE AND STARTED SHOOTING HIS GUN LEAVING THE GUN ON THE TABLE HE RAN TO THE OUT DOOR KITCHEN WHERE WE WERE STAYING GRABBED MY PURSE FOR MY KEYS I TOLD HIM NO HE THEN WENT INTO THIS TRANCE AND STARTED STRANGLEING ME.... HE TOOK OFF WITH MY CAR... I RAN TO MY GRANDMOTHERS HOUSE TO FIND MY AUNT GRANDMOTHER WHO IS 90 ALL IN THE KITCHEN FULL OF BLOOD.... AT 8MONTHS PREGNANT I CALLED 911 GOT TOWELS CALLED FAMILY MEMBERS also he shot my uncle who ex chief of police of that town... Me and my were together for 4 years.... IT HURTS HE HAD BEEN TELLING ME HAD SEVERE MENTAL ISSUES FROM WAR... I DIDN'T SEE THE SIGNS??? NOW I'VE LOST MY FAMILY SUPPPORT AND I JUST HAD OUR BRAND NEW BABY BOY BORN OCT 4, 2012... AN IM TORN WITH MY HUSBAND BEING GONE FOREVER.... ITS 3 COUNTS OF ATTEMPED 1ST DEGREE MURDER... PLEASE PRAY FOR ME I'LL BE 28 IN FEB. AND ITS ALOT OF TRAUMA AT ONE TIME