Missing Him

My husband died last October from malignant melanoma (a very aggressive form of cancer).  We were mates, had a lot of laughs together, and a bond of love so strong that I still feel him around me.   We moved up to Shropshire 3 years ago, and so I am now at least 5 hours drive away from my family and loved ones, and I am desperate to move back to be near them.   The evenings and nights are the worst - sitting indoors, having no-one to talk to except my cat - his passing has left a huge gap in my life I cannot hope to fill.   I do go out sometimes with people I have met in this small community, they are all very nice and friendly but they have their own families and lives to lead and I cannot always afford to go out,  I play the music that Phil loved, and it brings the tears but this makes me feel better when I've had a good cry

I hope to move back nearer my sons, and start afresh, go back to work, as I know Phil would have no patience with me giving up and getting depressed.  I know that I will be able to cope better as time goes on, and I just want to let others in my situation know that time can be a good healer, and you will get through this!

Starwraith Starwraith 56-60 1 Response Sep 5, 2008

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time moves on and love moves on as

though you are still around

and although i am alone my love i feel

that i am loved but i know not why or by whom

so if you feel this love then please tell me

besause i am starting to fear that i imagine all

this love will disapear into thin air my love

why do i feel so alone when i know

you watch over me is it because

i need to hold you in my arms again

when it is impossible this i know

someone must be watching me as i move

along in life because i feel there watching me

as i sit and cry so alone and sad

when will be my time to love again can you tell me

no i dont think you can for you have gone before me

to the everlasting love be not affraid my love for you are loved amongst the angels

just sitting reading when this came to me

from where i do not know but someone somewhere

will know who its from