My Soul Mate Is Gone, My Life Has Been Destroyed.
I met my husband the summer of 1999 while playing volley ball at the river. I had recently came out of a relationship that was not so great and was not looking for a relationship. We hit it off right away and became great friends. By Oct 2000, we were married. He swept me off my feet. Our relationship was what I had waited my whole life for. We would finish each others thoughts and freak out about it. He brought laughter and an appreciation of life to me. In a very short time we bought a home and adopted 3 cats and 2 dogs. And without any warning at all, I get a phone call telling me he is dead. 3 days after Christmas, 2006, the worst day of my entire life. How can that be? The only person who ever treated me like I really meant something in this world? The only man I ever felt true respect for? Why would God finally answer my prayers and then take it all away? But he is gone. My world is empty and cold.
Some days it seems that I simply have no purpose. I don't want to accept what has happened and yet how can I not? I miss him so much and it seems that this horrible pain will never end. Even now over 5 months later, I pray to God to let me wake in the morning and it only be a dream. I need him, I miss him, I love him so much.
I hate this. I hate most everything.