I met my husband in 1969 and we married in 1971. We had many happy years together. He was my soulmate, my best friend. I miss him so much. We had 3 children and 4 grandchildren, it would have been 5 grandchildren, but we buried our grandson in 2006 and my husband in 2007. We are a very close family, but I still feel very alone. I try to get on with my life and hide how I feel to others, but I cry every day on my own, it just comes on me. I watch other couples together on holiday or just shopping and wish it was my husband and I. I miss the decisions we had to make together etc., I know we were so lucky to have so many years together, maybe because we were together so long it is so hard to live without him. Another thing that bothers me is that extended family members think that you are getting on with your life when you are not. If they have never experienced death of a close family member they don't have a clue how you are feeling. Would like someone to talk to on this topic.