I'm about to give in a go ask the doctor for something to help me get through the mornings. I miss my kids so much it is making me sick. I cry and feel like vomiting. I tell myself that by afternoon I will feel better, but getting through those hours after I wake up is really really hard. It was such a mistake to let them go without me. I thought that since they were safe and happy I could use time on my own for a change. Time on my own feeling like hell missing them was not what I had in mind.