I Want My Kids.

I used to be a stay at home mom. Around the time my daughter turned 3, I was pregnant with #2. She was born in 2000, he was born in 2003. I haven't seen my kids since 2004. I think about them every single day, and that will never stop. I used to write letters to them that I didn't send but it was just too traumatic to continue. in 2005 my ex took my kids to another state and didnt tell me. In 2004 I talked to him on the phone for the last time and he told me my kids had a new mommy and didn't need me. If I wanted to see them I could when they were 18. He's since moved again. Yes, I know where he is. If I contacted him he would probably just change his number (not that I have it), and try to see if he can ruin what little happiness I've managed to grab onto now. I dont know what to do.


Edit: I'm doing a lot better. I used to not be able to be around people with children for very long because I was so traumatized.

Also: **** everyone that tells me to get over it. How can you ask someone to get over their KIDS?!
Daenerys2012 Daenerys2012
31-35, F
Sep 12, 2012