Miss My Angel Mother

My mother Passed away when I was 17. It was the hardest thing that I had to go thru. She was always there for me....we had our little petty arguments and all. Hey what mother and daughter dont have those. I will never forget that day. It was also the day I watched my dad die inside. My Sister was in the navy over in greece or somewhere, so she wasnt there when it happened. I was there..having to call for help and watching them rush her to the hospital. not the best call to make. Then hearing the doctors tell us that she wouldnt make it. I had 3 nurses drag me away screaming and crying. Thinking of how much I still wanted to tell her. to tell her I loved her and missed her. never getting to say goodbye. It has been 7 years and I still havent said good bye. Its hard and I will do it someday just dont know when. I just want my kids to know that they have a grandma in heaven who is looking down on them and watching them. My dad has since then been remarried and his "wife" is slowly driving a wedge in between my dad and us kids. We have tried to tell him but he wont listen. well i guess he will figure it out soon or later. I just want him to know I still love him andI still love my mom and they are always in my thoughts.
irishwannabeky irishwannabeky
26-30, F
4 Responses Sep 4, 2007

its very touching and i am very relate of your story,I can't help it,my tears dont wanna stop right,i miss my mom ,i miss her so much..:(

I was 17 when my mom died too. She died from cancer in 2011 and I would never forget how she held my hand and told me that the doctors are giving up on her. I feel so much regret for not being a better daughter. I wish I could spend another day with her.

I have to agree...some many times we take parents for granted. It's only because of experiences and stories like yours that truly make me thankful for all the things I have in my life. Thank you for reminding me how much we need to cherish life. And like the ladies said, we'll be thinking about you!

Listen to me my darling, dont you ever think for one minute that your mother isnt with you at all times, She has only left her body behind, her soul is in you, how could she never be around you. Dont haunt your self over the bad things you saw, or heard when your mama was dying, thats just a scene we have to go through as part of our ponishment for eve eating the apple, you must feel your happy times in your heart from the things your mama has bred into you and you will grow older gracefully from your ever loving mother. As for your dad, well he is a man, your father knows and feels more then you know, it dont matter who hes with now, that can happen to the best of us, make his life easier while hes still here, as you know , were not here for ever. I lost my mama when I was 16 months old, I dont know who she is or whats shes about, but I do know that shes with me because all of my five children have told me so, God bless. xx