The One Person In My Life Who I Never Wanted To Pass Away..

I keep three letters from her in my desk drawer. Today, as I was rummaging through my drawer to look for a receipt, I see her handwriting. It nearly killed me inside.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Last year, my mom sent me a package on Valentine's Day. I keep thinking about that tonight.

I called her everyday and even if I was gone for a few days, she would call me up telling me she missed me.

I'm starting to forget what it's like to have someone who cares about me. I'm starting to forget what it's like to have a mom. It's been almost six months since she died. It feels like a lifetime.

I don't think anyone really understands how much I miss her. I can't put it into words.

flyawayhome flyawayhome
22-25, F
6 Responses Feb 13, 2010

m sorry for your loss...hugs

My heart goes out to you. You're grieving - everyone who loses someone close to them goes through it. You're not alone - every one of us who's ever lost someone close to us is with you.

I'm sorry friend.

I think I have an idea of how you feel.... and I want you to know... Im truly truly sorry.<br />
I wish I could say something magical and make it alright.... but I don't think that is possible. I can say that I care about you as if you were my own kid... I know that is silly in a ways.. but that is how I feel. We have shared a lot with each other.. here in little EP land... and I have grown to care about you and I worry about you and I want boss you around like I do my own kids!! :D<br />
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You too have offered a lot of wonderful support to me during my crazy times of raising teenagers. You have said some things that have truly impacted how I felt and what I did. <br />
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I think you are an incredible young women and I admire you so much! I know your mom is so super proud of you.. she is smiling down on you and is in heaven telling all the other angels... see that girl there.. that is MY daughter and Im so PROUD of her.... she is an amazing person!!! <br />
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I love ya kiddo... and I care about you a great deal.... Im always here for you!!!<br />
xo

sweetie i understand how ur feeling. <br />
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message me please

i'm sorry about your loss but Thank God you at least had a mom and i'm sure that if she was such of Good mom you would never forget you had her.