Is Time A Healer?

I lost my mother-inlaw 4 years ago in May of a brain haermorage whilst on holiday in Spain with my husband (my mother inlaws son) and my 5 yr old son. It was the most traumatic thing I have ever had to deal with. I watched my husband cry like a child and he craddle his mum until the paramedics arrived. My 5yr old son was angry that his grandma had ruined his holiday and then spoke not one word on the way back home to the airport. 9 months later my father-inlaw died of motor neurones disease - my husband was devastated. It is 4 years this month that my mother-inlaw passed away but I am now greiving the loss of my wonderful mum who passed away on the 27th March 2012 of COPD (chronic pulmonary disease). I am the youngest of 6 and my mums passing has hit us all so badly.

My mum was such a funny lady with a big heart and she decided not to tell her family that she was dying. This was probably because she couldnt bear to be smothered with all the love we would have given her. She went into hospital on 3rd March and died with her family surrounding her on 27th March 2012. I spent the whole of March visiting my mum in hospital and on the day she died I spent 2hrs in the hospital canteen trying to come to terms with the reality that I would never visit her again.

My husband and I are just about to loose our business which we have built up over 13yrs and I miss my mum so much. I know she wouldnt have been able to change the terrible state we are in but just having her here and picking up the phone to have a chat would have made my life seem a little less terrible.

I am 40yrs old and my mum had her 73 birthday in hospital. I miss she sooooo much.

bushrod7 bushrod7
36-40, F
May 6, 2012