ı Miss My Mum Too.

İ lost my mum a few years back, And i still havent got over ıt. İts lıke a lie at times,  i didnt get to see her before she died, and ı didnt say the things ı wanted to. she was my best frıend and ı mıss her so much, she was ill most of my life and so it became normal to me and my sister, she was a fighter and fought for 20 years to live, so we never belıeved that she will leave us. But ı guess ın the end she grew tıred and had to go to peace. But ıts hard when  death becomes part of your life. İts always in my face and ı cant get it off my mind. So i deal like my mums death as a lie, and that helps me to get on with life.



seven seven
31-35, F
2 Responses Apr 9, 2007

I have the exact same experience with the death of my mother that you are having.... I keep having the feeling like I'm waiting for the next person to die. Even my husband doesn't understand this because he still has both of his parents with him though he is 13 years my senior and his parents are in their 70s-80s... I was 29 when my mother passed and although my grandmother passed away before her, it really seems like my mother's death was the first domino in a string of goodbyes I am not ready for.

Hi, I just wanted to say that I enjoyed reading your story. I sometimes do the same thing with my father, who passed away a little over 2 years. I sometimes tell myself it didn't happen, but at the end of the day, I know it did and that it's a part of life. <br />
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Goodluck to you.