Gone, But Never Forgotten

Hi Mom,

I miss you soooo much.  I can't believe you've been gone for almost 2 years.  I can't believe I still haven't gotten over this enormous feeling of loss.  I want to talk with you and laugh with you and show you pictures of the kids and talk about them and ask you questions like "How do I caulk my shower?" and "What should I do a about the trim in my bathroom?"  and "How do I make your famous Rum Cake?" and "How am I going to get through another day?"  I need you help to figure out if I should get married again and what type of plant I should plant in my backyard - they place that's shady and always wet.  How am I going to figure out all this stuff by myself? 

Besides the person I always turned to when I had a question or needed help, you were always the person I loved to share my kids with.  You would be soooo proud of them.  They are awesome!!!!!!!  Of course, they still drive me crazy - and I'm nowhere perfect, but I try my best.  They are great people. 

Of course, I know you're there somewhere - trying to guide me.  I just wish I could have an actual conversation with you so I could tell you about my cat, my garden, and my plans for the future.  I talked with Aunt Nancy a few weeks ago.  She's great, but a poor substitute for you.  I never realized Mom's were so amazing until I lost you.  Wow!!  I'm glad I get to be one.

Well, Mom, thanks for listening.  I miss you, but I know you're in a better place and I'm very happy for you.  Just know that I love you and I miss you.  I would say that I can't wait to see you - but I can - I have a whole lot of living to do before we're together again. 

With tons of love, Jenny

Celebr8r Celebr8r
41-45, F
2 Responses Jun 7, 2007

omg.. you brought tears to my eyes... think ill call my mom tomorrow.. makes me want that relationship with her... thanks for inspiring..!!!

My God..... you have made me cry....