I Missed My Mom Long Before She Passed

My mom passed away a year ago. I lived with her for almost 5 yrs before she passed. She needed help because she had Alzheimer's so she wasn't really there mentally for awhile. She was no longer the mom that i knew and loved. Although I still loved her, life with her was very difficult. The stress of living with someone with this disease is really hard. My mom would kick, hit and spit on me sometimes. And then when I would put her to bed at night she would tell me she loved me. I would leave her room in tears. My mom wasn't the person she was when she raised me as a child. She was no longer the mom that shared in the Adult conversations we would used to have. My mom was no longer the person that enjoyed being with other people. My mom was no longer the person I could confide things in. My mom was no longer my mom....I missed my mom long before she passed away.

feebee feebee
56-60, F
Mar 23, 2009