I Miss My Nan
11 years ago today. Someone very very close to me got taken. My lovely Nan got beat by Leukemia.
My Nan was the most loving, caring, giving and gentle person. Lived her life for her family. Did everything for everybody and put herself last. Never did I ever see her sad. She was always smiling no matter what was going on. I was 7 at the time. She was my hero and I loved her so much. I watched her go in and out of hospital. I remember going into her hospital room, she had lost her hair and her condition was getting worse. But even then she was all smiles. Still gave me cuddles, still gave me kisses. No matter how ill she was, no matter if she had lost her hair. She was beautiful. She was my idol and I looked up to her. I wanted to be like her when I was all grown up.
Back then life was perfect. Whole family was together and we were all happy. When Nan passed on 17th February 2002 things changed, my family.. Things went weird. Now I was 7 I had just lost the most important person in my life. But yet my family didn't care. I wasn't allowed to ask questions, I wasn't allowed to talk about her. My family were more interested in fighting. From that day I shut my emotions off. Completely shut off from everybody. I was young and alone. I got bullied at school. 'Your Nan's dead' 'Your Nan was ugly anyway' I guess that's where my anger issues come from.
Grief does weird things to people. I only started grieving a few months ago and it ****** me up majorly. Still does to this day. But now I'm not alone.
See people have different opinions on things and I don't doubt people will call me crazy. But I believe in after life and I believe in fate. Within the 11 years I was struggling to cope my Nan was watching over me. I think she knew I needed help. So I believe she sent my boyfriend. The day he came into my life, things started to get better. I still see my Nan, everywhere I go and I can hear her and I do talk to her. I really don't care what anyone thinks or says.
Nan I love you so so much and I miss you. I hope I'm making you proud, I don't ever want to let you down. You always said I was an angel, I was a dreamer, I was ambitious. I'll show you Nan.
Thank you for bringing me someone to look after me and protect me the way you did. I'll see you in heaven xxx
My Nan was the most loving, caring, giving and gentle person. Lived her life for her family. Did everything for everybody and put herself last. Never did I ever see her sad. She was always smiling no matter what was going on. I was 7 at the time. She was my hero and I loved her so much. I watched her go in and out of hospital. I remember going into her hospital room, she had lost her hair and her condition was getting worse. But even then she was all smiles. Still gave me cuddles, still gave me kisses. No matter how ill she was, no matter if she had lost her hair. She was beautiful. She was my idol and I looked up to her. I wanted to be like her when I was all grown up.
Back then life was perfect. Whole family was together and we were all happy. When Nan passed on 17th February 2002 things changed, my family.. Things went weird. Now I was 7 I had just lost the most important person in my life. But yet my family didn't care. I wasn't allowed to ask questions, I wasn't allowed to talk about her. My family were more interested in fighting. From that day I shut my emotions off. Completely shut off from everybody. I was young and alone. I got bullied at school. 'Your Nan's dead' 'Your Nan was ugly anyway' I guess that's where my anger issues come from.
Grief does weird things to people. I only started grieving a few months ago and it ****** me up majorly. Still does to this day. But now I'm not alone.
See people have different opinions on things and I don't doubt people will call me crazy. But I believe in after life and I believe in fate. Within the 11 years I was struggling to cope my Nan was watching over me. I think she knew I needed help. So I believe she sent my boyfriend. The day he came into my life, things started to get better. I still see my Nan, everywhere I go and I can hear her and I do talk to her. I really don't care what anyone thinks or says.
Nan I love you so so much and I miss you. I hope I'm making you proud, I don't ever want to let you down. You always said I was an angel, I was a dreamer, I was ambitious. I'll show you Nan.
Thank you for bringing me someone to look after me and protect me the way you did. I'll see you in heaven xxx
By:
theunpredictable
Age:
18-21
,
Female
