My parents died three months apart in 2000. I feel like God left me with no one that really cares and I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up. Life is torturous to me. The pain is significant and the loneliness is deep and there's an emptiness in the pit of my stomach. I explained it by saying when my father died my heart was broken. When my mother died three months later, my heart was shattered into a million broken pieces. I see life on earth as a cold, dark, lonely place where people go on with their agenda and don't really care about others that much.
scottnorcross scottnorcross
46-50, M
2 Responses Aug 24, 2014

How old are you? When did it happen?

Its been awhile - it happened in 2000 - I am 47 and still feel this way.

I lost both my parents in 2001, five months apart. Somehow I knew it would be that way once I was old enough to understand. They were inseparable and were the most giving, kindest people. I thought everyone was like that growing up. Fast forward to adulthood and the outside world. Big disappointment. I miss them dearly and will forever be grateful that despite my inability to understand why people are the way they are, I had them to show me and teach me how people should be. I always have them in my heart.

Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry for your loss and pain.