Relationships Are Like Rollarcoasters, Right?

I haven't wrote a story in awhile, but here I go. So Me and my boyfriend, which is oversea's broke up. Yes, I broke up with him. I couldn't do it. I couldn't spend all this time waiting on him, though I really did love him. I felt like I was the one being tied down, waiting for him at home. I couldn't go anywhere or do anything with my friends that are guys because people would say, "what would your boyfriend think of that?" I just couldn't handle it anymore. I did what my mind told me to do, and not my heart. I left him. I gave up on him when he needed me the most. I got with someone else, but never was I happy. I only thought about him. All i wanted to know was hear his voice. I dreamed about him and just wanted to talk to him. Everyone looked down on me from there on out. I was the bad person. I convinced myself that I wasnt. That it was just a normal breakup. I told everone that they wouldn't say anything If I would of broke up with him while he was home, it was just the fact that he was oversea's. I made the BIGGEST MISTAKE of my life by leaving him. He's my guy. The only guy I want to be with. I broke up with the guy I was dating because I couldn't get my marine off my mind. I done everything I could to get back with him. Getting back together with someone that is oversea's is not an easy thing to do. I sent him letters, I sent him letters through motomail, and I keep writing him on facebook. Finally, after I got off work, I call came in and it was him! :) We talked for 30 mintues. We are now back together and still going strong. I'm very thankful to have a very understanding man. Knowing he broke up with me for his ex during bootcamp, he was very understanding. I love him, more than anything, and sometimes saying goodbye means a second chance. I'm here to say that I cannot imagine life without him, ever. Coming from me, that month and a half when I left him was terrible. He said that he had all these girls messaging him on facebook, but he ignored him. I now know that you do learn from your mistakes, and that there really is a thing called a second chance, and i'm thankful for that. He gave me the best news when I talked to him also. His unit may be coming home earlier than what the expected:) Life couldn't get any better:)