I Miss My Soldier Boyfriend In Afghanistan

He has only been gone for a month but every day feels like 10 years.
Before he was deployed we were already in a long distance relationship - not seeing him everyday was obviously hard but thank god for cellphone and internet, we could text and video chat whenever we wanted. We have been dating for just over a year before he got deployed and became so incredibly close very fast. He is my bestfriend, boyfriend and most definitely soul mate. I love him with ALL of my heart.
Everyone tells me that we are experts at not seeing each other so this year should be a piece of cake...they are sadly mistaken. It's totally different then going to different Universities in different countries. Now it's not just "I miss you" "I miss kissing you"  it is "I hope he is safe" "I wonder when the next time I will see his face."
He will be missing our
2 year anniversary.
His sisters wedding.
My birthday.
His birthday.
Valentines day.
And so many other occasions
I wear a smile on my face so that I can support him the best I can. I hate the fact that when I am having a bad day and I am feeling sorry for myself, it slips my mind for a few seconds that he is in a terrible place and my issue most likely sounds like the best moment ever to him.
It feels so good to just VENT, let everything I have bottled up out.
I don't really talk to people about what I am going through...because I don't know....I don't understand! This is very new to me! None of my friends have military boyfriends, and my family isn't a military family...so I have not the slightest clue on anything about this!
All I know is that I love him, I miss him, I hope he is safe and I am supporting him in every way possible
Whoever you are, reading this...thank you for taking your time to read my story.
wildandfree4lyfe wildandfree4lyfe
18-21, F
2 Responses Jun 4, 2012

I've been going out with my boyfriend for 4 1/2 years now and he has not spent one birthday with me yet! He's in the RAF. Hes currently in Afghan at the mo but will be back end of Aug! Thank god! It does get easier. It is his job at the end of the day and I chose to be with him so it's just something I have to live with and you need to understand that you have to (well I do) plan my life around his work unfortunately. It's nice to read other peoples stories. Feel better :) <br />
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My soldier boyfriend is headed to Afghanistan as we speak. I'm glad you shared your story. For me finding it and knowing I'm not alone has been tremendously helpful. If you ever need to vent to someone who is going through the same thing feel free to message me-

Yes nazmel he is. Why do you ask?