For 17 years I was Will's Mom... who am I now?? Everyday was spent around my beautiful son... breakfast in the morning, making lunches to take to school and dinner in the evening. Every weekend was spent at games watching my son out on the field run like the wind.....all this over in a quick instant..... A horrible phone call... and my life, as I knew it, was over. Will is dead... how can I say the words out loud. How can this nightmare be real.....I am lost... Lost in a deep fog of sadness.... each day i go to bed and each morning I wake up and my son is still gone... nothing will ever change this. People try to say to me it will get better, no it will not... It will not get better, I will just have to learn to live this new life, but it will not be better.