Too Beautiful For The World<3

My little Kian Matthew was only 18 days old when he passed. It's been 13 weeks and 2 days now. I miss him every second of every day. I'm not sure if I have even coped with it yet. My husband doesnt bring him up much. I'm so scared people will forget him...He was so beautiful. I had a rough pregnancy. I was on bedrest, rasing a 3 year old, while my husband was deployed. He was only home 6 days before I had an emergency c-section. It was terrifying. My son was diagnosed with lissencephaly shortly after he was born. We knew we only a few days with him. We had a million tests done because we just knew the doctor had made a mistake. Those were the hardest 18 days of my life. Living in a waiting room, trying to decide when and if we should take our precious baby off life support. No parent should have to make that call. No parent should ever have to lose a child.
An Ep User An EP User
1 Response Jan 10, 2013

Sympathies for the loss of your little Kian.

I lost my son in his 20's, but it is as you say - no parent should ever have to lose a child. No matter what the age, the pain is close to unbearable.

But we have to bear it.

I too worried that people would forget my son, and I gave away much of his artwork to friends he had all over the country - I had them framed and sent them, trying to up the odds that they would hang the drawings and people would continue to remember him.

With such a little one as yours, maybe giving family some kind of remembrance of him would help. And he will always live in your heart, as long as your heart is beating.

My thoughts are with you - all the best to you.