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For Mothers Who Grieve

Andrew and Thomas    --by Shelly Wagner

 

 A simple question

 Never a problem before.

"Do you have any children?"

 Really a simple question.

 Easily, I say "Yes", but

 What do I say to "How many?"

 

 

"Two", my hard-headed

                Heart always says.

                One is dead.

                Must I say only one?

                Absolutely not-I have two

                Sons.

datura datura 56-60, F 45 Responses Aug 19, 2008

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You will always be a mother of two.

i know what you feeling i have two children to my son that was 19 and at time i lost him my daughter just turn 16 and to this day i tell everyone i have two children but one a angel in heaven but he still my baby boy

My son Maddox was born with a rare skeletal disorder called campomelic dysplasia. He was born November 7, 2011 and passed away 7 weekd later on December 26, 2011. We had no idea he had any issues when he was born at 28 weeks. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your son. You are not alone.

Thank you for posting this. It is exactly how I feel when people ask how many children I have. I always say two as I cannot deny my first son's existence, for the sake of making a conversation less awkward for the asker. My oldest son, Ruairi, died when he was a week old and would be four now. My youngest son, Kieran, just turned one and I love them both so much. <br />
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Laura.

I too have 2 sons. My 1st. Kobe - he was 10 y/o when God took him. every time I think of him, and I tell myself that he is an Angel now, he is my Angel. I talk to him before I sleep, i tell him that he's a higher being now, that he's been promoted by God..I don't want to think that he's gone, I always tell myself that he's always with me. He is my son, and that will never change.<br />
For us mothers, we're OK. Our kids are in God's hands.

It has been almost 17 years sence my son was killed in a car wreck, my only child. My email address says where my son is myangelmyson. When someone asks if I have any children I say yes, I have a wonderful son waiting for me in Heaven. <br />
If I were you and someone ask me how many kids I have I would say two, 1 on earth 1 in Heaven.

Poetic

Thank you all for your comments. My heart goes out to each of you.I hope that time will bring you some sense of peace and connection to your lost child.

Gmverts, I just noticed your comment - so sorry to read of the loss of your precious Paul. I still cry several times a week, and my son (29 yrs old) died in July of 2009.<br />
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I long for him all the time, and have had only three dreams I can remember about him. The first two were very fleeting, and I saw him in the distance but could not talk to him. In the last one, I got to hug him and tell him how much I missed him and loved him. I hope I have more like that.<br />
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My sympathies again for your loss. Know that you are not alone.

I have a few dreams of my son, he hugged me once, the second was about when he was a baby, comforting but sad at the same time

I lost Paul, my 25 yr old son July 12, 2010. My heat aches ever so much. I know your hurt and am so sorry you must have to go through this. I yearn to feel his presence but I have not as of yet. I still cry every day. God has told, my husband to trust him on this one, God has given spiritual visions to his girlfriend of 7 yes and one other friend,but as of yet I have not had even one dream of him. I miss his presence. He fell asleep and that was it. Six months later the report says... Natural causes, Sudden death of unknown etiology.

Datura, my heart is with yours in Happiness that feels like sorrow and loss. My son went to Heaven on February 21, 2010...I am numb...I can't believe he is not here for me to talk to in an audible voice every day. I hear him talk to me, we laugh and share our experiences....I know I will see him again.<br />
For I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ and he is preparing a place for us.. Imagine your son riding Roller Coasters and building his home for you to come and visit, Forgive me, do you believe in Heaven? Think happy thoughts,,for me I know my son is no longer in pain. He did not believe in using drugs, he refused to take Chemo which destroyed his Liver and his Kidneys. He became a vegan, worked out, loved to share the Gospel and he shared the other part of his life with a girl he married 2 1/2 years ago. He loved her very much....I ask God to watch over us those who had a relationship with a wonderful young man. I Love You...God give you peace and comfort. Madrevillalba

Thanks Flugel. You know how it feels, too. So sorry about your sister. Your nephew is blessed that you and your dad are in his life.

Hugs...I feel the same when I am asked how many brothers and sisters I have. I have two sisters - one is passed. I have one brother although I have a nephew that we view as a brother because following my mum and sisters deaths my dad raised him as a son. <br />
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I am really sorry for your loss. Hugs xx

Thank you, Anna. I am always relieved when September is over now.

Datura,<br />
I remember that September is an especially challenging time of year for you and I wanted you to know that I'm sending you positive thoughts and prayers.<br />
Hugs!

Thank you,Mother. I believe that is true, too.

Their sons are smiling at them from heaven.

Yes, MissyouE, and it will probably always remain a painful question. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I know exactly what you mean. I hate the question, "How many kids do you have?" It makes me want to scream. I always answer. "3", although I am now left with only 2. Sometimes I don't even explain that my son is gone.

Thank you, Max and Destry.<br />
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I can feel the love.

Hi there, little bro.<br />
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Yes, and it is a comforting thought.<br />
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love to you as well!<br />
d

hi there big sister.<br />
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he is up there with matt and all our dearly departed.<br />
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strength and love and peace to you.<br />
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love <br />
b

Hi missingtyler and welcome to EP. <br />
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Your response for the question is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

First time posting....It took me a long time to talk and to I guess, accept the death of my son. <br />
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I was missing Tyler tonight so I googled "missing my son" and this website came up. I wish I would have known about this sooner. However when I saw the first question, <br />
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"How many children do you have?" <br />
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I thought wow, she hurts too when she is asked the question. <br />
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My Answer:<br />
I always say "2 surviving and 1 angel waiting for me" Then if need be I state "I lost my first born son, Tyler Jacob 12 yrs ago"<br />
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I never leave Tyler out! I would feel too guilty! He is my son and will always be. He's just somewhere else that I am not, but will be someday.<br />
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And as far as the pain, only someone who has lost a loved one can state there opinion. I believe there is really no "true, correct or right" answer. It is a matter of opinion and mine is: IT DOESN'T GO AWAY, I HAVE JUST LEARNED TO LIVE WITH IT. <br />
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Thanks for listening, <br />
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Tiny Angels rest your wings<br />
sit with me for awhile.<br />
How I long to hold your hand,<br />
And see your tender smile.<br />
Tiny Angel, look at me,<br />
I want this image clear....<br />
That I will forget your precious face<br />
Is my biggest fear.<br />
Tiny Angel can you tell me,<br />
Why you have gone away?<br />
You weren't here for very long....<br />
Why is it, you couldn't stay?<br />
Tiny Angel shook his head,<br />
"These things I do not know....<br />
But I do know that you love me,<br />
And for that I love you so".

What a lovely way to put it, Abooklover, and so true.<br />
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Sarrina, I am so sorry for your loss. It is a painful question to be asked, and I still dread it. Listening to your own intuition is always wise.

I had only the one son, who died very recently, and now I dread this "do you have any children?" question.<br />
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I guess I will cross the bridge when I come to it, and just answer in whatever way seems right, when I'm asked.

Thank you, Princess. It means a lot.

Thank you, Handy2iam.

I think you are a very strong woman my sweets. And i'm sure it even made you stronger by now.<br />
God Bless you and yours always.<br />
I have lost many relatives in my life,,, even to being murdered, I think I understand.<br />
God Bless

Do good for others. Volunteer. Make sure there are good things done (put your departed son's name on the good deeds you do) Donate five dollars in your son's name to a worthy charity. The shriners were on the street corner the other day collecting. I put a dollar in the bucket and said" This is for my son who died."<br />
"God bless you, I will say a prayer for you and your son," were the words I heard. It does me good to do good in the name of my loved ones who have gone.