If you walk away, every day it will rain

   It has rained every single day since you went away. Not only just rain but outside it has been extraordinarily nasty. It's turned extremely cold. There have been tornadoes and floods. I can't even remember the last time I saw the sun. In a weird way I wonder if I am responsible for this horrible weather. I've cried so much that I feel that it's my tears that have flooded all of south Louisiana. I didn't know it was possible to miss someone this much and I now understand why I'm in so much pain. It's because you were my soul mate.    The day I realized this was the day we first saw each other face to face. Even though it wasn't in person and over a computer screen I could feel the deep connection. Something in your eyes captured my soul and I will forever remember that day.     You have changed my life and it will never be the same. I know it will be hard to go through life separated from you. I know I will never love another man as much as I love you.There's no man on Earth that can make feel like this. You were it for me. I will always love you even though you may not recognize me as your soul mate. I know why you had to go and I don't blame you. I just wasn't ready to say goodbye yet. I had just gotten you back. Now you're gone again and I'm here all alone and I will never know what it was like to touch you. Never know what it would feel like to be in your arms. I think that's what hurts the most.      I will wrap myself up in my warm memories of you and try to carry on now but of course life seems so gray. You added so much color to my world. I was grateful for the brief time that we did have together. Even though this pain seems unbearable I feel blessed to have known you. I will miss you til the day I die.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           
howsab howsab
31-35, F
Jan 16, 2013