Thinking Of Him

I've been trying to move on. He's seeing someone else and though they have only been together for about a month I feel like I have to at least try to let go. If it doesn't last then I know I have a chance. But I am not the person that can sit and wish for his new relationship to fail, so I'm looking around and trying to see what's out there and I'm really disappointed at what I'm finding.

The people I am finding just want to talk about sex, try and get into my pants. I feel like I'm getting a little old for that. After knowing what it's like to really love someone, and really have them love me, a deep true love. I don't want to settle for anything less. I want someone to love me and take care of me and let me take care of them.

I want to find someone that I can connect with mentally and physically. I don't want to be a one night stand or even a friend with benefits. I want a man that I feel safe enough with to maybe even get married and have a family.

I've only met one person I feel that way about. I'm hopeful that there is someone else out there that like that. But the ideal would be to have him back.
insane000illusions insane000illusions
26-30, F
1 Response May 14, 2012

Good luck . Just my opinion that if he is seeing someone else you deserve better . Don't be anyone's second choice . Having said that I also must say the heart does not always make logical choices . We can't help who we love . We can control how we act . The world has changed I see more people just caring about them self so to find love is harder and harder . And to make it last takes work and sacrifice. Again good luck .