Done And Never Going Back.I am over this bullsh!t. I need to be or my life will end soon, I can feel it. I'm a better person than I give myself credit for and I can do anything I want or put my mind to. I have always used drugs and drank a lot, but a while ago I started using heroin again in a big way. No one until right now knows about it. The only person who knew I began using it again was the person I was getting it off of, and I had one or two friends who suspected it. I went through the detox again and I am determined to make it my last. I have so many things I could be accomplishing, so much potential, and I've wasted the last decade or more on drugs. The best years of my life were thrown away, but it will not continue.
I am not going to sit here and say from this point out I will live a completely sober life, because I won't. I will still drink frequently and smoke weed, there is no denying that. I do however refuse to throw my life away on heroin and cocaine. I haven't used either one in over a week, which isn't a significant amount of time, but it is a start. I am more motivated than ever to start being who I should've been when I was 16. It took me until I was 28 to really realize what I could've done all this time had I not brought myself down like this.
There is more to life than this, and I'm going to find it. To my few EP friends that I really care about, I love you and thank you for being there for me when I needed someone to talk to.
I refuse to let this kill me, I will overcome it.