Everyday I Wish You Were Here
My mom passed away in October of 2001. Just one month shy of my 20th birthday.
It was so sudden. It tore my close-knit family apart. we're not the same anymore.
I dropped out of college. I couldn't bring myself to complete it, my heart wasn't there.
Now my sister will be getting married in a few months and its even more glaring that my mom isn't here.
since that time, I have changed so much. my family tells me I've become such a hardened person.
My close first cousin calls me heartless. I think she means it as a joke but it still hurts.
I no longer celebrate my birthday. It just brings back those horrid memories of that early morning when my mom was taken away from us.
I am scared to let people in because i think that they won't be around long enough anyway.
And most people don't have the patience to stick around long enough either.
Most people that know me, think my life is happy and perfect.
If only they knew...