It's Always Painful

You beautiful face flashes in my mind when I least expect it. It's always painful, like a knife is always being slowly, painfully shoved into my chest, but you don't even care. You're with her now, and you're happy. You're happy, while I lay here, broken, alone, lifeless. She walked through the door, and all you could see was her. I don't even matter to you anymore, do I? If I died right here, in a pool of tears, you wouldn't care, would you? I'm nothing to you. We've known each other since we were babies, children. I would die for you. I would give up eveything for you. If you told me that you would love me again if I lay down and die, then I would do it, no matter how irrational, no matter how crazy. When I'm with you, it's like I'm just so happy... I can't even explain it. Right now, as I cry before my computer, I'm thinking of you. I'm thinking of the time I fell of the swing when we were babies and cried, and you helped me up. You've always helped me up, and now it's all gone. It's like every time I've ever fallen, it's like you never picked me up. So every time I fall, I just get lower, and lower, and lower, and no one but you can pick me up. I've loved you for fourteen years, but it's not even worth it any more.

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Epikk Epikk
13-15, F
2 Responses Jan 6, 2013

Thanks. :')

I know how you feel............ hand in there.. you are not alone.