For Your Forgiveness I Can Only Hope and Pray

I did not ever know

that I could feel so very low

I've loved and lost before in my life

I've loved and lost my wife

but I never thought that i could be

as sad as losing you has made me

i was so very lonely

i blame me only

for I had a love that made me glad

and now I am just so sad

i know that I will be okay

but that will not be today

for without you

I don't know what to do

I never meant to love you

I tripped and fell in love its true

head over heels

and now it feels

like I may never really heal

I am so sorry I could not see

what my words might mean to thee

I've never felt this bad before

I will love you for ever more

i'll cry myself to sleep tonight

and wake before the daylight

but there will be no light for me

there will be no joy you see

for I miss you more than I can say

I miss you more each passing day

I broke my heart

but that was just the start

I ruined my dreams

my heart for you still screams

but there is no one to hear its cries

and still the tears fall from my eyes

and now for all my days

for your forgiveness i can only hope and pray 


SantanaRex SantanaRex
46-50, M
8 Responses Mar 11, 2009

I will be okay thx. I wanted to share the serenity prayer<br />
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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. <br />
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The courage to change the things I can<br />
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And the wisdom to know the difference.<br />
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I must accept ....

My condolences to you, my friend.

sleepless the hugs help <br />
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shine thx so much your words mean alot to me ...<br />
((((((((HUGS))))))) x infinity and beyond! <br />
shine on you crazy diamond! I love you too ...

I am sorry my friend. I am sending warm ang big friendly hugs to you maybe it helps to make you feel better. (((HUGS)))

I have met so many wonderful people here on EP and I have been blessed to find friends that I love. I never want to hurt anyone here, my friends are so important to me, to think I have hurt one of them makes me feel very sad. I am just so sorry ...<BR><BR>As the chairman of the happiness in '09 campaign I know its about my attitude, I want to help others. I want to make people happy, its not always easy for me to remember its really not about me, its about helping others. I forgot that and I hurt someone, I will learn from my mistakes and I will refocus my efforts on spreading happiness around. I offer my love and support to all my friends. I hope I never hurt any of my friends ever again.<BR><BR>I find it amazing how much love I can feel in my heart for people I have never met! There are so many wonderful people here that I truly do love alot! I wish I could help you all, I wish I could take all your pain away.<BR><BR>For now I will set out bravely with a gallant smile and try to fill each hour in useful ways - its what Matti would want me to do. I really have no reason to be sad because in my heart she will always be - it may be why I sometimes feel like I am bursting with love for the world! <br />
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sometimes I just get off track and I can't hear her voice anymore .... to help guide me back .... so at times I struggle and do or say the wrong things - I wish I could hold her hand right now .... I miss her touch

many hugs* Angel<br />
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trw - hugs to you too, I will try and be a better friend for you ... sorry I have not even asked about your king lately ...

Dearest SR...oh dearest gent... *hugs and tears*

..many hugs*