Heartache

I am terrified that am I going to be alone forever. I miss my ex-boyfriend though I haven't seen him in over a year. I miss the last man I was seeing and I think about him everyday. I am heartbroken over all the losses in my life. I obsess about things. I am scared of what other people think of me. I am 25 and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. I wish I had more time to go and do crazy things. I want to dye my hair pink and then blue and then blue and green, I want tattoos and to get more piercings. I want the time to explore all the times I could be. And if not, I want one summer to go and sow my wild oats. I missed it already. 2008 was my year for that and I missed it, Kicking myself. I'm alone and I want to find someone to be with because I'm alone, not lonely, but I am alone. I'm tired of being alone. I want to go somewhere where people won't judge me. I want to be Peter Pan. I want to be young forever. I'm so scared of everything.
meabhfitz meabhfitz
22-25, F
May 19, 2012