I miss you. I miss the weird, fun, hyper times we shared. I miss being carefree, with you right there with me. I miss being able to confide in you, with everything, knowing it would never come out of your mouth to anyone but me, knowing you'd never judge. I miss you having my back, and I yours. I miss the perfect friendship we had. I even miss the arguments, at least that proved it was real. But, I guess, good things never last do they? Since you've been going out with Rohan, you've slipped away. You've become more self conscious. More, I don't know, fake.. It's like I never actually knew you. It's like you never knew me. You never hang out with us anymore, and if you do, when your lips part it's all about him. By what I'm saying, you'd think I was jealous wouldn't you? You know what, I wish I were. At least that'd be normal. But I'm not suffering from the green-eyed monster. No, not at all. I'm angry, and sad at the same time. I don't even care that you have a boyfriend, you deserve it. What I do care about is what he's done to you. He's made you so horrible. You burst into the room when your friends were playing a board game. You burst in with him, and you swore at us and made fun of us. Do you know how that makes us feel? Sh*t. Absolute sh*t. I miss you. I really do. Every day. Every moment. Every second. I just, I can't get my head around it. Sure, I have other people to turn to, but I don't know how to express myself with them. I need you, I really do. Please. Please come back to normal. I miss you.
loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx
16-17, F
Aug 27, 2014