A Dream-filled Day...

So this sinus infection snuck up on me quick. I stayed in bed all day to ward my fever away and have been having the strangest dreams (that ended up leading me to this site, thinking this was for dream interpretation only)....

I think I probably dreamt about over 30 people, most of them old friends and acquaintances. Two of these stood out to me the most...ok, here goes.

I've only ever dreamt about having a baby once, and it was a few months ago (when I was currently in a relationship). It scared the crap out of me, left me feeling anxious, jittery, guilty, and very very lonely. My boyfriend at the time was absent in my dream- no where to be seen and completely unsupportive in my time of desperate need for help. The baby was an infant and needed constant care and supervision, but I kept finding myself forgetting it existed and freaking out to go find it, or not knowing how to take care of it. It felt like such a huge burden that was out of my control, no one was there to help me, and I couldn't tell my parents as they would not approve.

Anyway, today, in my weird, hazy, mix of sick-dreams, I had my second ever baby dream. Only this time it was completely different....I had a little girl, about two years old, I think the father was someone other than Kevin (the guy I recently broke off a 3 year relationship with who was absent in my last dream), however, he was there as though we were raising her together. But it was a secret to most people this child belonged to me, I guess so I could preserve my reputation as someone who didn't have a secret love child at the age of 23 and was bound to **** up their life if the world knew. So my neighbor was taking care of her and everyone believed her to be the mother. But I was jealous. I thought this girl was precious, something beautiful I had created, and I both didn't want and wanted my friends and family to know the truth. I guess the weirdest thing was how different this baby dream was compared to the last....also, a lot of my old friends were included, as well as my ex, and all of them were sources of positive vibes. The feeling of nostalgia when I woke up was a bit much, but it was nice to think about them for a while...
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Dec 6, 2012