Bad Mother

i have raised 3 children and i have done a terrible job. i feel remorse, shame & disappointment in myself. i should have done a better job for them. they are all in 30"s now and i am still paying the price in so many ways for my mistakes. they know i feel the shame and guilt and even though i know they are using that to their advantage i still continue to give - suffer and sacrifes. i feel that i have nothing for myself at my age. but what can i do, it is what i did and i am responsible for them- each part of them. should i just disappear- make them stand on thier own? i feel guilty that my boyfriend feels the pain seeing me in pain. he has tried to help too and they use and abuse him too. what do i do.
TJCASS TJCASS
46-50
Dec 2, 2012