And Yet...

each time she telephones, I try, try hard to reason.  I always fall for the bait 100% and this time, I am inclined to agree with him and cut you out of my life.  I have cut so many out over the years that have hurt me so much less but I have that guilt that you so much invested in me as a child.

You responded to my news with negativity based on only one condition - money, you reminded me of times I have been trying to resolve and forget and in one minute the smile in my heart had returned to the dark, isolation of my childhood, the childhood you ignored.

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3 Responses Feb 16, 2009

Both my folks are dead. I had a dog named scooter who I had to put down. I sure miss scooter.

i have an aweful relationship with my mom. i love her but shes very negative about everything and im not!

All my life I'd had an unreasonable relationship with my mom. She and I were like oil and water. I finally ended up just telling her what I knew she wanted to hear. Took her judgements and bad advice with a grain of salt & got my validation from myself and others in this world I actually respected.<br />
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Mom... she's gone now. I've had to come to terms with the fact that it would have never been a Carol and Marsha Brady kind of relationship.... she simply did the best she could...