My boyfriend died on April 19th, 2016. We were hit by a drunk driver on April 11th, 2016. We were so happy and in love with each other. We were making plans for what we were going to do once we got home. We saw the truck coming but it was too close to get away. He was my best friend and the person who always was able to give me peace of mind. We were going to be moving in together. The messed up thing but this whole ordeal is the driver didn't have a scratch on him. I lost the love of my life. I am so close to graduating with my masters that my boyfriend was so excited to see. But now, I am so stuck and unsure how to go on without him. I miss him so much. It's so unfair for him to died. He was only 24. He was getting his life together and everything he wanted was coming into place. I'm so tired, I don't want to do anything anymore. I know he would want me to go on and try to be happy, but it's so hard to do that without him. How am I supposed to go on without him when we were so happy? I sleep in his shirts, on his pillow, and holding his favorite hoodie. But I barely sleep even though I'm so tired. Does this get any easier? I know I am going to miss him for the rest of my life and no one will be able to take his place. Why did my baby have to died and leave me all alone? Is there any comfort in being a survivor of a severe car accident? I can't even bring myself to hate the guy who hit us, yes I blame him because he had no business driving drunk but I can't hate him. Is it bad that I just want to sleep and never wake up again?
Cici1822 Cici1822
22-25, F
1 Response Apr 21, 2016

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