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I My Dad Used to Beat My Mom

My Parents Divorce

By: sadboy17
Written on February 4th, 2013
Im 17. Recently my parents got a divorce and I've seen my father do things to my mom that will stay with me for the rest of my life. I've seen my dad physically beat my mother in front of me and my 2 younger brothers. I've seen my father put a gun to my moms head and just recently in her mouth I'm so hurt do mentally I feel like im never going to get better I've been thinking suicide is the only way to stop all this from hurting me even more I love both of my parents they had me at 15 and now their in their 30's and I dont know about my life anymore I just can't seem to find happiness I'm really thinking about ending this world of problems I just can't deal with it anymore both of my parents are guilty now I beg god for forgiveness because im going to take my life away pretty soon. :.( I just wish my little brothers my best of luck I love them botg so much well goodbye..
By: sadboy17
Age: 16-17 , Male
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  • kbseahorse
    kbseahorse

    I understand your feelings and I am so sorry. I was raised with an abusive father too that beat my mother constantly. It is terrible to have these memories. I have just recently learned that I needed to keep God in my heart and forgive my father. He passed away many years ago and I never forgave him....so the nightmares and sadness always stayed with me. I wanted to die too when I was a teenager and young adult. However, I am now older and know that everything I witnessed and saw and felt as a child made me who I am....I realize I am not alone. You are not alone. Forgiveness does set YOU free....not the abuser...but YOU. I don't now if your a person of faith or not, but if you are, ask God forever for help and strength....that is what got me through as well as therapy and counseling. I am so sorry my friend....I will pray for you forevermore even if we never message again or you never see this post.....God knows who YOU are and loves you. God will hear my prayers for you. All my love to carry on.....day by day.......YOU are a good caring person...xoxox

    Feb 17
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  • Somexyz
    Somexyz

    Hi, don't lose hope. There is no doubt how difficult it is for you to see your parents fighting. But don't do anything stupid. If possible , take help of some elders of your family. PM me anytime.

    Feb 4
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