My Best Mate BarneyI never intended to get a dog. We were walking past a pet shop and my son wanted a puppy. For some reason we decided to drive to the RSPCA (for lost dogs) and then I saw him. He had a sign last chance dogs club and I saw his face, the way he looked at me and I knew I then I was taking him home.
People would say how great it was of me to rescue an older dog but I know deep in me that Barney rescued me. He became my best friend, someone who wouldn't leave my side. In the earlier days he followed me to the bathroom but over time learned that I was not going to leave him. My life has become so intertwined with his and he has given me so much pleasure. He taught me what unconditional love really is.
Something went horribly wrong. He had a limp and suddenly he was paralyzed and now he is no longer here. My heart is breaking, the pain beyond belief. I don't want to think about the guilt, the feeling that somehow I let him down. It is Sunday and it was Friday night I said good bye and the pain is as severe. I can't sleep, eat, sit, read do anything but cry. I have this panicky feeling and a sickness in my stomach.
There is a comfort in knowing that others have felt this and somehow got through it. I miss my best mate and everywhere I look I see him and yet I don't because he is no longer there.
Barney Boy I love you so much and are so grateful to you for making my life so much better.